It's easy to be myself sometimes. The other facts are easy: I like the restaurant and mangers/staff very much. But I hate my hostess trainer. Every time I come back in, I think, Maybe it'll be different this time. Maybe if I'm even more earnest and nice . . .
Wrong. I am old enough now to not take it personally, but it bothers me that it affects my training; I don't learn how to perform my job duties and I mess up because she ignores me and isn't there to respond to my questions, or she does the task very quickly without letting me learn how to do it. This part really irks me because I feel her attitude is unprofessional. I really want to make a list of feedback for training improvement, but honestly, I'm not certain I can be impartial enough. I fear it might sound passive-aggressive or petty. So I just keep quiet, apologize a lot for messing up, and try to learn as covertly as possible.
I still feel quite gauche at work. But when I think back at how I felt when I first started at Apple in a social sense, I was all gaucherie. So maybe it'll get better for me here. I sure hope so. I don't fit in or feel comfortable.
I hate that feeling the most. I realize that I could never live alone somewhere isolated. I love the connection of enthusiasm that is shared between people far too much. I feed off of these; it fuels a core part of me.
I really want to start a simple blog devoted to delicious simple recipes that anyone can make inexpensively and for great eateries. Mostly, a blog about accessible good food. Everything I stand for! From me to you! And because I get too lazy to keep emailing certain recipes when asked.
I'm stuck on the name, though. I want it to be hosted on WordPress, and wanted 'bonhomie,' but that's already taken. It perfectly encapsulates how I feel about food!
'breadandbeer' is too boring. Maybe I should think of something involving spices. I like anise. Tarragon is a great herb. 'fennelfellows' is cute, but I don't really use fennel that much, and I feel people think about the fennel bulb more than the seed. Duh I prefer the seed! It smells good! So darn good.
This is difficult. Ugh! I want something cute but not too cute and without over-the-top word play. No on puns. Something apropos like 'greciansojourn.' Nerdy cute!
Last night, since Jason was coming over for dinner, I made up the impromptu (and cheap! Even though the groceries were from Whole Foods!) dinner of:
- seared and roasted chicken leg quarters stuffed with garlic and tarragon
- sweet carrots to roast in the same pan so as to soak up the jus!
- tricolored sweet corn on the cob
- pan seared haricot verts with caramelized shallots and a splash of fish sauce (so divine!)
- Bouchon Bakery's pecan wheat bread with the illustrious La Tur cheese
I had leftover almond chocolate cake, but ended up making a banana sundae with melted bittersweet chocolate topped with almond slivers.
I'm totally intense, and efficient! The ingredients were so simple and cheap! Now I have leftover tarragon with which I'll make into an infused lemonade. Come visit so I can cook. I eat cereal when I'm alone. This is often.
I won't even talk about lonely feelings.
But I am, as you know. The highlight of my day is when it's my turn to play Words With Friends which is essentially live Scrabble via iPhone. Will you play with me? My username is of course, 'queso.'
Please?
